~~~ Birthday Celebration 09 ~~~

Finally ... I have found some vacant time to write the post about my birthday celebration... ^.* Sorry to keep you guys from waiting hahaha

9th of August ... yeah 9th of August ... the most special day of my life ... the day I was born ... hahaha ... Why am I bullshitting all these ar??? (Pai seh la ... haven't got any ideas yet how to start my post ar :P)

Alright...alright...got it haha...

Few days before my birthday, I had sent text messages to several of my close friends inviting them to celebrate my birthday with me. The venue of the celebration was actually a place I always hang out with my friends i.e. a karaoke (which I spent most of my weekends there ^.*). Then I started to countdown for my big day. Unfortunately, a day or two before my celebration I received a number of text messages turning down my invitation :( Can you imagine how upset I was at that time??? Frankly, LEOs don't like the feeling of disappointment...it makes a LEO questions his/her importance. Bringing with me this displeasure, I awaited my special day to arrive.

Since that's the second Saturday of the month, I had to go to the office (as we work on every second Saturday). Nothing special happened in the morning until my name and several others were being called out. I only found out after a minute or two that those being called out were those celebrating birthday in August. Huhuhu ... so I was lucky enough to had my birthday celebrated with my colleagues during my first week of working there ^.*. Surrounded by birthday song and wishes, we had our cake cutting session. Also, we received a small gift from the HR. I'm really thankful for what they have done.

Then it came the moment I've been waiting for long. Around 9 something I arrived at the karaoke with my dearest friend NINI. Then there were a few more friends joining in and we started to capture our sweetest moment. TENG TENG TENG ... Here are some photos that we've taken on that night.


Time ticked by and finally it's 12 midnight ... WOOHOO ... again birthday song, wishes and gifts showering me........and I.....definitely was the happiest girl in the world at that time ... ^.*

- A summary of my first working week -

Once again, sorry for not updating my blog for more than 1 week. There were so many things to be done last week that made updating my post a mission impossible. So now I'm going to sum up what I've been up for the last few days.

As you all know... I just started to work in a new environment on last Monday. I woke up extremely early that morning ... erm ... arnd 6am to get myself ready for my undertaking. Can you imagine how difficult for someone who didn't wake up as early as that for ages but had to do so starting from that day??? But, what to do??? I don't want to be late for work on my very first day (of course if possible all my forthcoming working days as well :P) so the only thing I can do is to sacrifice my sweet dreams... :'( Overall, my first day reporting to work was quite smooth and happy as the staff there are all very friendly and helpful. Meeting nice staff and new friends there has somehow eased my worry of having workplace politics with colleagues around.

The remaining days of the week unfortunately turned out to be uneven ones for me. I was always the odd one out who faced problems like forgetting to bring important documents, not being enrolled as a lecturer in the e-learning system, not having the chance to meet my mentor (as she took 1 whole week sick leave) and so on. I couldn't let my hair down for the past whole week due to all those unpleasant experience.

Apart from being the odd one out, I also started to feel the mounting stress climbing up my shoulder when we were given briefing on the rules and regulations of the organisation. We are abide by tremendous amount of rules and regulations in order to get a certain thing done. Frankly, I don't see the importance of some rules being set but then again what to do right ... just pray hard I don't break any of them during my probation period :P

All those crazy and unpleasant experience flipped through like pages of a book and it came the weekend which I had been awaiting for. Hahahaha... what's on during my past weekend??? Stay tune to find out in my next post ya... ^.*

~~~ I wish I could ~~~

I wish I could
rewrite the story of ours;
the story of which
descended an air of melancholy on us.

I wish I could
freeze the memory of ours;
the memory of which
was engraved in our hearts since we met.

I wish I could
reconsider the decision of ours;
the decision of which
we made regardless of the consequence.

I wish I could
change the fated destiny of ours;
the destiny of which
was doomed from the very start.

I wish I could ..........
Could I?
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't
for I've walked into a trap
which was set by ME MYSELF!!!

~ I Wonder ~

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I wonder
Why life's full of decision making
Why there always appears
Two seemingly favorable choices
At the same time

I wonder
Why I always struggle in choosing the best choice
Why I still question myself
After I've made up my mind
To choose one choice over another

I wonder
I wonder
I wonder

WHY? WHY? WHY?
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~~ Got it... finally!!! ~~

Ehem Ehem... let me just clear my throat first before I announce this great news (at least to me myself it is :P) to my beloved readers ^.*.

Teng teh teng (sound effect ^.*) .... Susan will start life anew in August!!!

Meaning???

Some of you may start to scratch your head over this statement I guess... :P

Erm ... basically starting life anew here means I'm gonna take up a full-time job as an English lecturer in this coming August.

What??? Hey, Susan!!! You've been working as an English lecturer for all this while what!!!

Hehehe... you're right but you're also wrong at the same time. It's true that I've been an English lecturer but I've never been a full-time English lecturer what :P So, the oncoming job offer is kinda different from my previous work experience. I'll need to sacrifice my sweet dreams to avoid rush hour in the morning. I'll also need to spend more time at the workplace which I didn't need to when I was only a part-time lecturer. Then, my worst worry is ... I'll need to face the colleagues around for a longer duration (8am - 5pm) whereby conflicts or complicated workplace politics are inevitable. So, summing up... Susan's life is gonna be much different than the one she's had before this.

Anyway, it's great to have something new in life to try for, doesn't it??? Just wish me luck in my undertaking. ^.*

~ O ~

Without you
my life will no longer be
a complete circle.

~Invisible Wound~

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Others can only
cut my flesh
even with a sharp blade
but you
are able to
tear my heart out
simply with one harsh word

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