The sudden clutch of fear...

I'm afraid...
extremely afraid now.
I'm afraid of losing my faith;
I'm afraid of losing my determination;
I'm afraid of losing my soul;
I'm afraid I can't be myself any longer...
There is a deep fear clutching at my heart.........................

Be a good girl...

I've been trying to be bad lately...I did things which were not supposedly to be done by the angelic side of me...still I couldn't help doing them again and again...Oh gosh!!! What's on my mind now? Am I too exhausted of being a good girl for all this while? I wish I'll be able to put an end to whatever that I've done after I have had experience of them. Yeah...there will be an end soon...very very soon...I promised myself not to go overboard...anyhow, I can't really be that bad...someone told me I had to be a good girl...yeah...I will...don't worry. Susan is always and will always be a good girl!!! HAHAHA...

Secretsssssss

Recently I've a lot of secrets to keep.
Who am I having the secrets with???
It's a secret.
When do I start having those secrets???
It's a secret.
Why are they so secretive???
It's a secret.
Last but not least, please don't tell people around that I'm having a lot of secrets k?
Let this be another secret between you and I... ^.*
Shhhhhhhhhhh..................................

~~~~~ WOW ~~~~~

Wow wow wow... it's almost a month since I last updated my blog!! :P Erm...maybe I should explain for my long absence here hehe...

So what have I been up to lately?

There were actually a number of things happened simultaneously which occupied most of my time and thought. First, I was almost worn out handling some personal problems. (Don't ask me what personal problems they were. I mentioned *personal* means they are really PERSONAL lah haha...). Second, I have been attending some job interviews for the past 3 weeks. A positive sign actually though until now I still haven't really made up my mind which company I should go for. Apart from that, I'm glued to singing karaoke with friends at night. I guess that is one way to release my stress. Hence, I went KTV almost 5 nights a week. YEAH...you didn't get me wrong...it's 5 nights a week!!! Wahaha...crazy Susan!!! Tell you what...I'm most probably out singing again tonight ^.*

So, that's all about my recent life. For more updates, please stay tune...kakaka...